31 December 2013

A Top List of Five Top Five Lists of Top Things What Happened in 2013

Writing a personal Game of the Year (GOTY) or Top Ten 2013 Games post is really popular around this time of the year, where you pick a select number of games that made 2013 fantastic. I'm not going to do that, though, because
  1. everyone will already be sick of seeing Gone Home, Bioshock Infinite, The Last of Us, Saints Row IV and The Walking Dead in various configurations and combinations, and
  2. I haven't actually played any of those games, because
  3. I was dirt-poor for most of the year and couldn't afford them even if I wanted to, and
  4. I realised that this is another facet of this "it's too late to talk about games that are more than two years old" idea that the games industry encourages, which vastly limits critique and criticism of the whole medium.
So, instead of a Top Five List of Games of 2013, I'm writing A Top List of Five Top Five Lists of Top Things What Happened In 2013.

Top 5 Things I Wrote In 2013

I think 2013 was probably my busiest year yet with regards to writing. Up until April, I'd been working for SquareGo, a Scottish games review site; then, in May, I joined GayGamer.net, a queer-interest game culture site. Becoming part of the team at GayGamer feels like a massive personal victory - I'd been following the site for years, never once thinking I'd actually get to be a writer there.
  1. Fear for the Flesh: Francis Bacon's Influence on Silent Hill, a thorough breakdown about how the artist Francis Bacon was a direct inspiration for a lot of Silent Hill's art direction. The first thing I wrote for GayGamer!
  2. A Silent Hill Queer-y, looking at what Silent Hill would look like with a queer protagonist.
  3. Queer Mechanics #1: Identify As..., discussing how gender/sexual identities could be represented mechanically in games, which was the focus of my Honors year project until it had to be changed.
  4. A Review of Dear Esther, which I wrote after reading and absorbing a lot of New Games Journalism inspired pieces, and which made me realise I prefer analysing games and talking about my personal experience of them rather than writing supposedly-objective reviews about them.
  5. Easter Egg Apocrypha, examining the culture of secrets, cheats and tricks in games.
Top 5 Games I Made in 2013

I made a few more games this year than I did last year, which include:
  1. Hypnagogue, a Twine horror game where the protagonist has to escape from a labyrinthine construct that swallows up their room one night. This was my first ever Twine game, and I seriously doubt it'll be my last.
  2. The Loch: A Scottish Fishing RPG, a game where you play as Angela, a fisher at Loch Saor, who aims to catch the 18 fish required to become a seasoned pro at the Fishing Club. The Loch was initially made for the 7-Day Fishing Game Jam, but I enjoyed working on it to the point that I decided to stick with it and keep developing it for a couple more months, which I documented over here!
  3. Ava Martin VS. The Binarist Hegemony, where you play as Ava Martin, using her gravity-based superpowers to infiltrate the secure facility of the Binarist Hegemony. Ava Martin was made for the Strong Female Character Game Jam 2013, which I wrote about over here!
  4. cRUNch!, an endless-runner-style game made for a university project focusing on spreading awareness of academic stress. cRUNch! was voted 3rd in the Top Three of the Integrated Project 3 module, and was showcased as part of Caledonian Creates! 
  5. Apartmental: Okay, technically I'm cheating with this one, since I didn't finish it at all; rather, it was an idea that was finally put to rest. Apartmental was an idea I'd had for a good long while, where the player would try to escape from a labyrinth surrounding their apartment (which later got rejigged and recycled into Hypnagogue) - it was a very ambitious concept, and eventually, it really started making me feel drained. At the start of 2013, I decided to let it go, which game me back the resources (time, energy, etc) to work on the other games I made this year. I do feel disappointed that I didn't get to finish Apartmental; I can only hope one day I can go back and finish it.
Top 5 Other Game-Things I Did in 2013

I also managed to do a fair bit of other cool games stuff that wasn't development per se, both as part of and outwith my games degree at uni in 2013, including:
  1. Created and undertook a university experiment using SCP-087b to test pre-emptive terror in horror games.
  2. Created the underpinnings of a system of game mechanics to represent gender, sex and sexuality in games.
  3. Stopped writing standard game reviews.
  4. Rented a desk at Hayburn Studios in Glasgow to have a dedicated space in which to work on games in the future.
  5. Completed a module on New Venture Creation by looking into the possibility of "games art galleries".
Top 5 Other Art-Things I Did In 2013

I got up to a bunch of other art-related things during 2013, my faves being:
  1. A set of five photographs I took were included in the I Am... exhibition during this year's Glasgay! event in October, collecting together work from participants during the I AM ART project. This was the first time I'd really done photography and photomanipulation, and I think it came out really well; there was a lot of positive feedback from folk during the exhibition, and it's definitely made me consider doing more in future.
  2. During the I AM ART project, we had a workshop session about collage, during which I made this collage piece; it was the first time I'd done collage in yeeeeears, and it was a tonne of fun! It also made me think about the possibility of using collage in game mechanics and aesthetics - which I might be talking about soon...
  3. The pixel-art avatars I did for the Loch were a major success for me, simple though they might be; I'd never done much pixel art before The Loch, but it was interesting trying to work out how to animate some of the avatars to get them to work in-game.
  4. My Avatar image, which started out as a wee experiment in photoshop, turned out so well that I ended up using it all over the place during 2013!
  5. Shorn, which was a submission for the I Am Art Zine, was a follow-up to the previous image, and came from an idea that myself and some of the other participants in I Am Art had discussing (of all things) hair and hairstyles. 
Top 5 Games I Played In 2013

In all honesty, I didn't play a whole lot of games that came out in 2013 - but I found out about a bunch of games I'd never heard of before then which seriously changed my perspectives on gaming, as well as my own game development.
  1. Animal Crossing: New Leaf. In all honesty, I bought AC:NL on a whim while waiting for Pokémon X&Y to be released, based on occasional tumblr posts about how relaxing and fun it all felt. I played it religiously for a few months, and, while I've stopped playing because I feel like I've exhausted most of the activities in the game in a short space of time, I really enjoyed every minute I played it, from the bug-catching competition to fishing on the tropical island at night-time. It made me feel really nostalgic for the way I played games as a kid, spending hours in Majora's Mask watching how people in Clock Town went about their day, or getting to know the ins-and-outs of games like Final Fantasy X like the back of my hand.
  2. Space Funeral (not a 2013 title), an RPG Maker horror game by thecatamites, opened my eyes to the weirder, more avant-garde side of games - and it's a side of games I'd like to immerse myself in more. It feels arty without feeling forced, eerie without relying on horror tropes, and funny without constantly cracking jokes.
  3. Dear Esther (also not a 2013 title), is a game I finally bought and played at the start of this year, which made me realise how impactful games can be without much player agency or game mechanisms other than "walk forward". It's a very atmospheric game, and I really enjoyed just being able to explore the game setting.
  4. Positive Space (a 2013 game!) by Merritt Kopas, is an autobiographical Twine game that features sex involving the inguinal canal, which I had 0% awareness of prior to playing the game. Positive Space is an amazing game not only because it's so intensely personal, but because it shows that personal games and independent developers have a wealth of experience to draw upon that AAA games titles simply can't or won't tap into anytime soon (or to the same degree of sincerity that indie developers often do).
  5. Starwhal (also a 2013 game!) is just fucking fun, no two ways about it.
So there we go - things I made, wrote, accomplished, played and created this year. As a whole, 2013 has been a really, really good year for me, and I think 2014 will be that much better.

28 October 2013

[GayGamer.Net] Queer Mechanic #3: Coming Out



Queer Mechanic is a regular feature here on GayGamer – each month, we’ll be presenting a new game mechanic that could be used in games that include or focus on queer identity or culture. Queer Mechanic is a thought experiment, to see both what we could add to games, and to recognise what’s been missing from them; it’s a challenge, both to readers, to come up with novel, interesting and effective ways to use them, and to developers, to include them in games; and it’s a discussion for a more inclusive, more varied, and more innovative future for the games industry.

Many of the LGBTQ characters in games come “as-is”, in the sense that they have already undergone most of their soul-searching and self-realisation about their gender, sex or sexual identity prior to the beginning of the story; similarly, although there are often dialogue options to bring up the fact that your character isn’t heterosexual, these are rarely (if ever) framed as your character “coming out” to that person – instead, it’s more like they’re getting the other person up-to-speed with something that has already been established.

Which is strange – because for all its potential for being an emotionally-taxing event, coming out can be a big event in queer folks’ lives, as it marks a milestone in the process of coming to terms with one’s identity. And, while it may be too niche to be included in all games in all genres, there’s certainly scope for using coming out either as a core or constituent part of a capital-Q Queer game, or even as a special event inside games with lots of character-driven narrative, such as Bioware’s Dragon Age or Mass Effect. So, with all that opportunity for interesting storytelling, why don’t we consider ways we could use it in games?

Last month we took a look at the potential for games based around the “animal” epithets in gay subcultures – this month, we’ll explore another facet of queer identity – how the process of coming out could be modelled and explored in videogames.

(You can read the rest of the article over at its home on GayGamer.Net!

3 October 2013

[GayGamer.Net] Grand Theft Auto V: Misogyny & Transphobia


Scottish people love talking about Scotland. It’s kind of to be expected, since we’re a groovy bunch. We’ve got kilts – widely regarded as one of the sexiest pieces of gear ever – and we’ll fry and eat anything if it stands still long enough. To date, the only other people I’ve found who emphasize their nationalism in the same (non-creepy) way are Canadians; I can’t help but wonder if it’s something to do with being attached to a country that gets a bad rap internationally and wanting to distance yourself from them — in fact, the people of Scotland want to distance ourselves from England so much that we’re even voting on leaving the United Kingdom next year.

So, given this predisposition to singing the praises of all things Scottish, and given that Rockstar North, the team behind Grand Theft Auto V, are based in Scotland, I really, really want to talk about how brilliant Grand Theft Auto V is (and, by extension, how great Scotland is, because that’s totally how it works).

But I can’t, because it’s festooned with misogyny, transphobia, and creepy rape jokes that don’t really seem very funny.

(You can read the rest of this article over on GayGamer.net!)

6 September 2013

[GayGamer.Net] Queer Mechanic #2: Wolves & Otters & Bears ... !


Queer Mechanics is a regular feature over on GayGamer – each month, we’ll be presenting a new game mechanic that could be used in games that include or focus on queer identity or culture. Queer Mechanics is a thought experiment, to see both what we could add to games, and to recognise what’s been missing from them; it’s a challenge, both to readers, to come up with novel, interesting and effective ways to use them, and to developers, to include them in games; and it’s a discussion for a more inclusive, more varied, and more innovative future for the games industry.

If you’ve been around the gay scene in some form or another – pubs and clubs, online gay communities, or dating sites/apps like Adam4Adam or Grindr – you’re bound to have come across terminology like “bear” or “otter”, used as a kind of shorthand to discuss people’s body types. These terms of identity also help foster social groups and subcultures.

A quick run-through of the most common of these terms, all of which have some degree of overlap: “Bears” are typically large men, often with plenty body hair and facial hair, and their size can either be down to fat, or muscle – though large, muscular men can also be called “bulls” as well; by extension, “cubs” are younger men with all the attributes of the aforementioned bear bodytype. “Otters” are lean, hirsute men; “wolves” are similar, but are typically more muscular than lean, and also tend to have an aggressive or assertive quality to them. “Chickens” has almost fallen out of use in favour of the word “twink”, to describe younger men, typically without much bodyhair.

These terms of identity are a big part of the experiences of gay men in the West, but have largely been ignored in videogames (a sneaky nod to bear subculture in Mass Effect 3 notwithstanding). They may seem trivial or inconsequential in comparison to previous literary contributions from, for and about gay culture and subcultures; but then, the content and mechanics of videogames – or any genre, in fact – don’t have to have an immense literary quality to be worthwhile to represent or include. And you know what I think would be awesome? A game all about the dudes we know in those subcultures!

Last month we delved into the potential for letting players define their character’s gender and sexual identities in a wide variety of different types of games – this month, let’s explore what we could do with a game that specifically focuses on a particular element of gay male subculture in Queer Mechanic #2: Wolves & Otters & Bears!

(You can read the rest of Queer Mechanic #2 over at GayGamer.Net!)

3 September 2013

[GayGamer.Net] PAX Honesty Time: Pulling Dickwolves Merchandise Was "A Mistake"


The 2013 Penny Arcade Expo took place this past weekend! And, as fate would have it, there is once again controversy surrounding Mike Krahulik as he fires another bullet into the Penny Arcade Dickwolves timeline.

For those not up-to-speed with the debacle: back in 2010, Mike and Jerry, the creators of Penny Arcade, posted a comic called “The Sixth Slave”, featuring a character talking about “dickwolves” and some grim allusions to rape in an attempt at “dark humour” (trigger warning for discussions of rape: “The Sixth Slave“). And ever since, they’ve been attempting to defend and justify their comic – most significantly by creating women’s T-Shirts with a “dickwolves” logo on the front, which was pulled almost two months later. And now, the controversy has been reignited – surrounded by a number of other controversies that highlight problems with Penny Arcade’s management, including Mike Krahulik’s recent transphobic comments.

(You can read the rest of this article over on GayGamer.Net!)

20 August 2013

[GayGamer.Net] Not Just, Justifiable, nor Just A Joke


Harassment seems ubiquitous, inevitable and inescapable in the world of videogames, and targets of harassment run the gamut from folk who show the slightest interest in games, to folk who regularly play and write about games as a career, all the way to folk who create games – and that harassment can come from folk in those roles, too.

People from any given group of people has experienced some form of harassment in videogames if they’ve spent any time playing with other people; women, however, experience far more harassment than men do, especially in the form of sexual harassment – suffice it to say, it’s not necessary to be a woman to be targeted for harassment, but being a woman is apparently a sufficient reason to be targeted for harassment.

Folk of other sexes and genders don’t fare much better, nor do gay gamers, or indeed, folk from any given group of people that aren’t the “straight white middle-class cis male” profile that’s continually reinforced as the norm.

(You can read the rest of this article over at GayGamer.net!)

12 August 2013

[myGameDev] The Loch: A Scottish Fishing RPG



The Loch began as a small solo project in RPG Maker VX Ace Lite for Sophie Houlden's 7-Day Fishing Game Jam, which was held on the 20th to the 27th of May 2013 - the theme was "fishing", which could be interpreted as literally or figuratively as anyone wanted to. Since I was looking for an excuse to make games over the summer between semesters at uni, I decided to take part!

...and that's despite the fact that closest I've ever come to actual fishing was in the form of a small box that my older brother owned: a green plastic container which might once have been a First Aid kit. Inside was a number of cone-shaped weights made of metal, or stone, and a tangled mix of lures and hooks - my favourite piece in the box was an orange squid with wiggly plastic tentacles, which I've since discovered is a lure skirt, a piece added to a lure to make it seem more alive (and thus more attractive to fish). The box had an esoteric quality to it, a secret treasure from a bygone age where each individual piece had a very specific purpose that was totally occult to me.

The rest of my fishing knowledge comes from an anecdote of my mum's that, when I was four or five, she saw me sitting on the edge of the pier of my hometown with a fishing rod made of bits I'd found lying around, including a metal chain and some twine from a fishing net, angling for those most elusive of fish, "splats". I can assure everyone that I used every piece of fishing wisdom I possibly could from this entirely anecdotal account that I have no memory of ever experiencing in the development of The Loch.

I only had the vaguest of intentions when I began working on the game that would become The Loch at the start of the 7-Day Fishing Game Jam. I'd just finished playing Yume Nikki, and I had some lofty intentions of making a game where the player character could fish from atop a cloud, under an abandoned oil rig, inside an ancient catacomb, inside their own dreams, etc, etc. I only had a week, though, and there was only so much I could do while getting to grips with RPG Maker for the first time. I decided I'd map out the levels of the game using the basic RPG Maker tilesets, and if I found time later, I'd have a go at making some assets for areas that are a little more out-there.

Over the course of the week, I kept a development diary on the Fishing Game Jam forum, with some daily updates on the progress of The Loch; and, by Sunday, I'd made a playable version of the game available. As with most projects - especially games projects - there were a lot of features that had to be dropped to make the cut-off point, a number of systems that had to be simplified so that they were even marginally usable, and a number of art assets that were unfinished or entirely missing from the version of the game released on Sunday. And, by that point, I'd realised I desperately wanted to keep going.

So I did!


After the weeklong game jam was over, The Loch just continued to expand in a way that I like to describe as "feature bloom" - it's like feature creep, but nice! Over the course of the next couple of months, I managed to get a lot done, including adding (and creating portraits and sprites) for 5 player characters and 15 non-player characters, 19 individual fish, and a fishing system with four different types of tackle, plus lots of little extras for those people who like to explore. When I'm designing games, I tend to keep in mind the categories of "The Bartle Test", a system that classifies players based on whether they're Achievers (who want a sense of accomplishment and concrete goals to complete), Killers (folk who like to make stuff dead), Socialisers (who like to talk, chat, roleplay and the like), and Explorers (who enjoy grokking the system, the environment, and so on). Although the Bartle Test is generally used for MMOs, I've found it's a pretty useful design system for single-player games as well.

Eventually, the "feature bloom" was rapidly becoming "feature creep" - I'd started considering adding in secret areas, additional characters and special events that were a fair bit removed from the original vision of the game - the thing that put the brakes on it was when I went to make a new level for the game, and was told that I'd reached the maximum number of levels for one project - the Lite version of RPG Maker VX Ace has caps placed on a lot of different elements of the game, including the amount of enemies you can create in one game (or in my case, fish), the amount of characters you can have, the amount of "common events" you can use, and so on. Up 'til this point, I'd managed to create workarounds for some of these limitations, but by that point I realised it was time to stop creating new things, and to polish what I already had.


Testing took up a fair amount of time; a lot of that was down to playing through the game at various points, to see any common problems that might show up on the average playthrough, scribbling down when they cropped up (alongside a possible diagnosis for why they appeared), and then continuing with the playthrough, provided they weren't significantly game-altering. Then, I'd go through each, one-by-one, and cross them off as they were fixed. Other times - such as after implementing a big new system, like adding in a new type of fishing tackle, new playable character, or a new sequence of events - I'd have to carefully design a way to test that system in isolation (for internal errors), and then how that system worked with any system that it interacts with (for external errors), which often meant adding in new events, new start points, and adjusting lots of variables just to simulate as though I'd been through certain parts of the game.

Once I'd done all of my own playtesting, I set up the Facebook group and let other folk playtest that version of the game - which turned out to be a massive help, because not only where there errors I'd completely missed, but there were errors that had been created because of things I changed so I could playtest the game myself!



As is often the case, there are a lot of things I'd like to improve, include, or modify, but time is always an issue. The Loch almost exclusively uses the default RPG Maker VX Ace Lite tilesets - I'd initially wanted to make my own tilesets for the game, simply to distinguish them from other games made with RPG Maker, but, for the sake of actually finishing the game before mid-August, I decided to set that aside - which was ultimately for the best, considering most of the sprites I'd drawn were either overly-simple or overly-complex!

I'd also have liked to include more distinct audio. I had the benefit of finding inchadney on the Free Sound Project, who has a girthy library of sound assets that were recorded in Scotland, including Scottish birdsong, which helped make the environment feel more like Scotland (and made it recognisable to Scottish people as well). However, I'd've liked to include Scottish ambient music - but, as ever, time was a factor, and it would take a lot of it to source a Scottish recording artist or two with free, open-source music, which could easily be looped, then implement it into the game at the appropriate points. The ambient background sounds of birdsong, waves, wind and rain were enough, I think, to put across the feeling of being by the side of a loch in Scotland.

All in all, I'm incredibly pleased with how The Loch turned out - I've gotten good feedback on it thus far, and I managed to include a lot of the systems and mechanisms that I felt the game required. It also meant that I could finally create a game that was distinctly set in a Scottish location, which, as a Scottish game designer who's also pro-Independence, was pretty close to my heart. The Loch definitely feels like a major success for me, and I hope at least some of the positivity I got from it comes across for all the folk who play it too!

You can download The Loch: A Scottish Fishing RPG from this Dropbox link:


Run the .exe file to extract the files, then run "Game.exe" to play!

1 August 2013

[GayGamer.Net] Queer Mechanic #1: "Identify As..."


Queer Mechanics is a new regular feature over on GayGamer – each month, we’ll be presenting a new game mechanic that could be used in games that include or focus on queer identity or culture. Queer Mechanics is a thought experiment, to see both what we could add to games, and to recognise what’s been missing from them; it’s a challenge, both to readers, to come up with novel, interesting and effective ways to use them, and to developers, to include them in games; and it’s a discussion for a more inclusive, more varied, and more innovative future for the games industry.

Character customisation is present in some form in the vast majority of games, but it’s only recently that we’ve seen an explosion of games where you can design the lead protagonist from top-to-toe, such as Mass EffectThe Secret WorldDragon’s Dogma, or Skyrim. Sometimes, we get the option to have the characters have romance options with a character of the same sex, but as of yet, we never get the option to explicitly state that our character is gay, or bisexual, or trans*, or any other terms of identity. We often have to read these identities into the characters, come up with personal “headcanon” where we decide, in our own heads, what our character is “really” like (even though there’s no way to represent that in game, and it often contradicts what actually happens in-game as well).

There are advantages and disadvantages to this approach – it means your character isn’t necessarily shackled to their sexuality because you ticked the “gay” or “lesbian” box. For example, Oscar Amell, one of my characters from Bioware’s Dragon Age, started a relationship with Leliana (a woman), and then, when the relationship came to an end, he and Zevran (a man) got together. That was only possible because of the “laissez-faire” approach to sexuality in the game, where I wasn’t choosing what Oscar was (e.g., homosexual), I chose what Oscar did (i.e., had sex with a person of the same sex as himself). Any character trait I read into that – that Oscar was homosexual, or bisexual, or pansexual, or situationally homosexual, or heteroflexible – would only ever exist in my own head. In the world of videogames, our characters are only ever WSW, MSM, WSM or MSW.

Many folk interpret that as a perfect world that we’re striving for in reality, where we’ve moved beyond the need for restrictive labels, where gay folk don’t need to define themselves as gay, where trans* people don’t talk about being trans*, where queer folk are Just People like the rest of us. But I don’t think bigotry suddenly disappears if we just stop labeling ourselves – I’m pretty sure a bigot will still understand the significance of two men kissing one another and that it is A Thing That They Hate.

Besides, identity is important – it literally informs who were are as people, and its importance, significance and ubiquitousness is immediately apparent if you start noticing every time you use the verb “to be”, or count the number of times you refer to yourself in speech. Identity influences everything from our daily lives all the way up to the peaks of human culture and society – and it’s a system that’s rife for exploring in games. And, with that in mind, let’s present the very first of GayGamer’s Queer Mechanics – the “Identify As…” Mechanic.

15 July 2013

[myGameDev] Ava Martin VS. The Binarist Hegemony


This weekend was iamagamer.ca's inaugural Game Jam weekend, where participants - both at the main hub in Vancouver, and those around the world participating remotely - worked for 48 hours to create a game based on the theme of "Strong Female Protagonist." I was one of those folk squirreling away at a game - and I got one finished, no less! You can play my game, Ava Martin VS. The Binarist Hegemonyby clicking here, and you can read about its development below!

Day Minus-One

This Game Jam wasn't my first - I've previously participated in the 48hr Global Game Jam in 2012 and came out with The 41st Tale, and I recently finished Sophie Houlden's week-long Fishing Game Jam back in May of this year, ending the week with The Loch: A Scottish Fishing RPG (which is currently in Beta testing and will be available soon!) As such, I knew that, although preparation wasn't important (or recommended) for taking part in a game jam, I decided to do some research into what I could use to make my game the day before, just so I didn't spend half the day getting familiar with a new game engine.

Initially, I'd considered making the game for the jam in GameMaker Studio, which I'd recently worked through a couple of tutorials on; but I wasn't 100% comfortable with that, since I already had a plan for a GameMaker game laid out for later in Summer, and I want to try to broaden my horizons a bit by designing games using lots of different software, engines and tools. I discovered GameSalad in a thread elsewhere on the internet, and, having heard it was fairly accessible, decided to go with that.

GameSalad, as it turns out, is very easy to use, and most of the work comes down to placing Actors (characters, NPCs, and any other on-screen elements) onto a Scene (a level or menu screen), and then dragging-and-dropping sets of Behaviours onto those actors. Those Behaviours are split into conditions (such as "when this key is pressed", "when this attribute equals 5", or "after 5 seconds") and actions (such as "move this actor in this direction", "load this scene", or "check if this attribute has changed"). Although it might be somewhat restrictive for people with a fair amount of programming knowledge, it's fairly accessible for people without that knowledge, although it often does require some creative workarounds as solutions for problems, which often demands that you be able to work out the flow of your program step-by-logical-step.

Day One

The night before the Jam started, I couldn't sleep - because Scotland had basically turned into a hothouse, and even with all the windows in my flat open, I was melting in the heat. So, although I'm sure it could be considered cheating by some by-the-book Jammers, I spent most of the night thinking up ideas for what I wanted to do with my entry for the Game Jam.

Like a lot of designers, when I'm coming up for ideas for a game, I usually end up trying to create The Perfect Game right from the get-go, and then having to jettison parts of the game as development continues and I start running out of time - which often meant that the ideas that helped bring the game closer to The Perfect Game would be missing, and I'd have been as well making a much smaller, more humble game  in the first place. I was determined not to do that this time round - I wanted to do what I did with The Loch and start small, by saying "if I can just get one basic action in the game implemented that helps bring the player towards some ending, I'll be happy, and then I can build on that if I have time."

My first few ideas were too ambitious, among other things. I ruled out a side-scrolling beat-em-up with a woman martial artist early on - it would be too difficult to hand-draw animations for a character in 48hrs and still make a compelling game, plus it came very close to the common practice of making female characters "strong" in terms of their physical fitness, which I didn't want at all.

After tinkering around with GameSalad the night before the Jam - and, crucially, discovering that gravity was both built-in to GameSalad's scene system AND could be altered - I remembered an idea I had a few months ago that came kind of out of the blue, of a platformer where the gravity was constantly changing - and, for whatever reason, my brain took that moment to connect that thought to an even older idea I'd had about making a superhero that had gravity-based powers, allowing them to perform all sorts of acrobatic stunts. Those ideas fused together into what would become my game.

I fleshed out my main character a bit after that, since I wanted the character themselves to match the themes and setting of the game. Recently, I've been becoming more aware of the type of characters that I (and other folk in the West/Global North) tend to create - and it's that recurrent intersection of demographics that continually crops up. White, able-bodied, young, attractive cisgender heterosexual men.

Now, because this was a Game Jam all about female protagonists, I'd obviously never considered making the character male - however, it often goes unsaid that any game protagonist is likely to be white, able-bodied, young, attractive, cisgender and heterosexual. People from all manner of marginalised groups have stressed the importance of having characters that look like them as a means of receiving equal representation and consideration in media, and, knowing that, I'd feel pretty uncomfortable if I continually churned out the white, able-bodied etc. characters that we've come to expect from the games industry. So, I set about creating a character that I felt would give some representation of people from minority groups, as well as fitting into the game, setting and theme.

The result was Ava.

I'd like to say that there was a meaningful train of thought behind deciding to make Ava a Black trans* woman, but it was nothing more than, "why not?" Trans* women of colour are frequently underrepresented in media, after all.


Ava's name initially came from a placeholder name that I'd given to the main character Actor in GameSalad when I was setting up - I'd chosen it because I remembered it from working on The Loch: A Scottish Fishing RPG, when I was looking up the most commonly-chosen names for girls being born in Scotland in 2012; and later I realised that it was the first three letters of the word "avatar", which was a happy synchronicity. It seemed to fit the image of the character I was developing in my head, so I kept with it.

Some placeholder art saw me through the first half of the first day, where I wanted to get the bulk of the game's physics and mechanisms in place first, but by the end of the first day, I'd already designed and drawn what I wanted Ava to look like.

The final image of Ava was a little sketchy, but since you're continually pushed for time during a game jam, I didn't want to sacrifice a lot of time getting a perfectly-polished image, at the expense of having no game to use it in by Sunday evening. Plus, the small screen resolution (480x320) meant that I'd have to shrink the image down anyway, so most of the sketchiness would be largely reduced.

I implemented most of the game's physics early on, which meant adding in behaviours that determined that, when Ava hit a platform at a certain angle, she would flip around to match that angle so she could stand on top of it, and the game's gravity would adjust accordingly - so, if Ava hit a platform at a 90 degree angle relative to 0 degrees, she would be standing horizontally, with gravity pushing her to the right. This added a whole new way of moving about in a platformer game that I really loved - it meant that you had to kind of "rotate" how you thought Ava would move, how she would turn when she landed - because if she only manages to hit a corner of a platform when gravity's direction is changing, she may not land on the platform at all, and just fall.

While I was implementing the gravity system, though because of the way it was implemented, a problem loomed on the horizon; whenever Ava touched a platform, she'd rotate to a specific angle, and the direction of the force of gravity would too. But, if Ava hit the wrong side of that platform, gravity wouldn't push her towards it - it would push her away. If she landed on a horizontal platform from above, gravity would act downwards, and she'd stay on the platform; but if she hit it from below, gravity would remain pushing downwards (relative to the scene), and she'd just fall. So, I realised I'd need two types of platforms, laid edge-to-edge, so they could adjust the angle of the force of gravity correctly.

When I made those platforms, I decided (simply because Ava was trans*) to make them pink and blue, the colors of the trans* pride flag - which then reminded me of the red and blue colors on magnets, and how we refer to things like the head of a cable as "male" or "female"; I thought it was interesting that we forced these categories of male and female on things that didn't have a sex or gender, and that the gender binary had parallels in things like science.

I'd also had a number of ideas about the win and lose conditions for the game, and how players would win it - I really wanted to design monsters that resembled fusions, amalgamations and interpretations of "male" and "female"-ness (something I touched on in A Silent Hill Queer-y), but I realised it could well send the wrong message - that transsexuality and intersexuality were something monstrous, strange and alien - if I didn't have time to implement ways of showing that that isn't the case at all. So, due to time constraints and art dilemmas, I decided I'd dot the level with some objects called Pylons, shaped like Male and Female symbols, which the player would have to destroy. The Pylons reminded me a little of those red and blue markers on magnets as well, which I thought was appropriate. This gave the game's strange gravity a new significance, as the player would have to think up novel ways of using alternating gravity to reach certain platforms to destroy all the platforms.

By the end of the first day, I'd implemented most of the game's physics and gravity, and I went to bed feeling accomplished and ready for the second day - a stark change from the end of the first day during the Global Game Jam 2012, where I went to bed (on a beanbag, under several beanbags, on a library floor) feeling like my soul was being hung, drawn and quartered.

Day Two

Testing the game was a continuous process: implementing a behaviour or two at a time, running the game in the preview pane, and seeing how the behaviour worked in game. Thankfully, most of the time, it worked exactly as expected - but there was no lack of situations where I'd put in a behaviour thinking it would work out fine, and it caused things to basically explode.

A particularly significant example of this was at the start of the second day, where I was trying to adjust the behaviour where, when Ava hit a platform, she'd rotate so that she would stand on top of it; most of the time, the rotation worked, but her jumping and walking animation cycles would mess up. Because I'd been adding behaviours as I was going along and adjusting how I designed those behaviours to work with GameSalad's built-in functionality, it meant that many of the behaviours had work-around statements; and, as more behaviours were added, these statements started conflicting with one another - one saying "if Ava is in contact with a platform, use the standing animation", but another saying "if Ava is in contact with a platform at the end of this behaviour, rotate the image". So, at the start of the second day, in the interest of having a game that was actually playable, I decided to redo the game's physics from the ground up.

Luckily, it only took an hour or two, because I'd already got a good image of all the behaviours I'd need from having created them before, and I was able to make them interact with each other in a much clearer, less clunky way.

I didn't decide on Ava's surname until the final day, too - the day that news broke about the verdict on the George Zimmerman case. I'd originally heard Trayvon's name mentioned in a couple of songs by Public Enemy and Lupe Fiasco almost a year before, back when I started becoming marginally more aware of sociopolitical issues like race, class and power dynamics in the West; after hearing the verdict, I decided to give Ava Trayvon's surname, "Martin".

I also decided that, in the interest of making her more realised as a female character, I'd like to have Ava comment on what she was doing - and the best place for that, I thought, was when she destroyed each Gender Pylon. So, I implemented a system where, when the player destroyed one, a disembodied voice questioned her motives, gaslit her, and generally acted like a wee dweeby transphobic misogynist; in response, Ava cut through their bullshit and set them straight. Done.

As the final hour approached, I decided I'd finish early, because I wasn't 100% sure how GameSalad worked when it came to packaging and publishing games for the PC platform, and I didn't want to accidentally take too long trying to work it all out. So, I scribbled up a quick main-menu screen, chose not to put any audio in the game, and rushed it through the GameSalad Arcade publishing process just in time to upload it to the main iamagamer Jam site, before the submission system mysteriously broke! Good timing.

And with that, I was finished! I'd managed to make a game from start to finish, on my own, in 48 hours. It wasn't polished, it wasn't life-changing or mind-altering or technology-pushing, but then, it didn't have to be; the point of a game jam is just to get you DOING SOMETHING rather than spending too much time designing, planning, talking or speculating, which many designers like me are prone to doing. And, in that respect at least, I managed to push myself through and finish the jam with a completed game that I could look back on and be happy with.

[Minecraft Monday] A Trip to the Borgesland



In the previous Minecraft Monday post, I bade farewell to Kentigern County, a world that was rapidly approaching obsolescence because of the impending Build 1.8.2, which included strongholds and villages automatically spawning in new worlds. The next update, TU12, is rapidly approaching, and again will potentially make Minecraft worlds obsolete because of the inclusion of the new Jungle biome. And that means it's time to say goodbye to the place I've been since October last year - The Borgesland.

The Borgesland has just about everything you could want from a Minecraft world - two villages in close proximity, a network of small seas and rivers cutting their way across the region, and one of each and every biome, including two mushroom-biome islands in the southernmost parts of the map.



10 July 2013

[myGameDev] The Loch: A Scottish Fishing RPG - BETA Version!


For the past few weeks, I've been working on a game that I made for Sophie Houlden's 7 Day Fishing Game Jam back at the tail end of May - that game is The Loch: A Scottish Fishing RPG, and it's now gotten to a stage where I can share a beta version of the game with you folks!

At the moment, I'm working on converting some of the standard RPG Maker assets over to assets of my own, and in the meantime, I'd appreciate if anyone playing the game could let me know if they find any bugs, problems or glitches in the game (as well as anything else they think isn't supposed to be there). If you do find anything, send a message either here or to The Loch Facebook Page and let me know!

You can download the Beta Version here.

3 July 2013

[GayGamer.Net] Why So Cis?



[Trigger Warnings for discussions of rape and transphobia throughout].

Yesterday brought something of a storm on social media, with Penny Arcade’s Mike Krahulik at the center, having unleashed the furore by making a couple of transphobic comments on Twitter. The Border House Blog has an excellent summary on the events, but for the sake of completeness, I’ll reiterate:

Folk on the web had noticed that there was a synopsis for a dubious-looking panel on the upcoming PAX Australia titled “Why So Serious”?, which, as one might expect, basically boiled down to people saying, “stop taking games so seriously!” to anyone who voiced any concerns with regards to the game industry’s less-than-stellar track record when it came to bigotry. Complaints were made, and the panel slightly altered their synopsis.



It didn’t make it much better. So folk contacted Mike Krahulik about the event, and from there, things escalated to the extent that Mike posted the following tweets.






(Screenshots courtesy of the Borderhouse Blog.)

And, following that, Mike posted an email discussion between himself and Sophie Prell, a trans* woman who formerly contributed to the Penny Arcade Report; the discussion can be found here.

In a statement for GayGamer.Net, Mike described the event thus:

This morning when I got up my email and tweets were all about a panel at PAX Aus. We will have a panel that will discuss if all this social justice stuff is good for the games industry. We don’t make the panels they are submitted by the community and we try and let pretty much anyone have a space to talk.
So this morning I was told I was a bigot and I was giving a stage to bigots. I said no one has to go to the panel but then I was told I was cis gendered garbage and I should die.
so.
at this point I should have stepped away from the computer and played with my kids but I didn’t. I went on the offensive and I made things worse.
I don’t dislike or fear anyone based on what they are or what they think they are. I try and be friendly to everyone I meet in person.
I honestly don’t think I am wired right for this fame stuff. I like to draw cartoons and play games that’s really all. I can’t be what all these millions of people want me to be. I’m not a role model, I didn’t even fucking go to college. I have beliefs that lots of people will hate. I have opinions that not all our fans will like. If I was just some normal dude it wouldn’t matter but the things I do and say are placed in another category. I need to be aware of that responsibility. When I feel attacked I attack back like I did as a kid. I can be an incredible asshole when I want to be. It’s like my super power. I’m very good at being mean. That’s been good for making funny comics but it’s not good when it hurts people who are already marginalized.
To be fair, I hate tons of people. But it’s never because of their sexual orientation or their gender situation or anything superficial like that. I honest to god don’t give a shit about that stuff. I only hate people because of the way they act.

So, back up, what’s the big deal here?

(You can read the rest of the article at its original home on GayGamer.net!

26 June 2013

[GayGamer.Net] But WHY Was The E3 Rape Joke Offensive?


Because rape victims say so.

[Trigger warnings for discussion of rape, sexual abuse, and language of sexual violence from here on out].

This was the crux of my recent spat on Twitter (which briefly engulfed our GayGamer.net Twitter news feed – sorry!) regarding the now-infamous “E3 Rape Joke”. Our very own Christian Walters already covered the event in a comprehensive article previously, but we also need to talk about WHY this was a very poor call on Microsoft’s part – which has kind of been encapsulated in the aforementioned Twitter spat. I don’t want to talk about this incident specifically, but how it relates to a much bigger phenomenon.

Y’see, folk are suggesting that the E3 Rape Joke “wasn’t a rape joke” and that people who were offended by it were being “over sensitive”.

I imagine there’s already a sizable contingent of folk already groaning and holding their head in their hands – to them, a massive apology; this issue rears its head often enough outside of the world of gaming that it can be anything ranging from “tedious” to “infuriating”. To the folk not face-palming, an explanation.

(You can read the rest of the feature over at its home on GayGamer.net!)

5 June 2013

[GayGamer] A Silent Hill Queer-y

Pyramid Head & Mannequins


What would a queer Silent Hill look like?

It’s probably a pretty odd question, but it’s one I kept brushing up against while I was brushing up on my Francis Bacon know-how for a previous article on Silent Hill over on GayGamer.Net. Bacon had a massive influence on the artistic direction of Silent Hill, and his work often contained themes of sexuality and/or violence. As a gay man, however, most of the paintings that were explicitly sexual in Bacon’s work were focused on the male form – but as a whole, the Silent Hill series is very much a negative heterosexual male perspective on sexuality (particularly female sexuality).

This may not necessarily be as oppressive as it might sound, given that the narrative of Silent Hill goes to great pains to demonstrate that its protagonists have very problematic, negative ideas about sexuality. In fact, the narrative makes it pretty clear that any representation of human life the player comes up against (from sexuality to family, from guilt to being teased at school) are by definition the protagonist’s own profoundly negative ideas.

That doesn’t change the fact that most of Silent Hill‘s representations of sexuality come from straight male characters and their attitudes to female sexuality, whose perspectives can pretty much be summed up with “women’s bodies are mysterious and foreign and sexy and scary.”

[Trigger warnings for discussion of sexual abuse from here on out, and spoiler warningsfor the main themes of Silent Hill 3, as well as bosses in Silent Hill 2 and Silent Hill: Homecoming]. You can read the rest of the article at its original home at GayGamer.net, or by clicking "Read More" below!

11 May 2013

[GayGamer] Fear for the Flesh: Francis Bacon's Influence on Silent Hill


(As of recently I've become a writer over at GayGamer.net! My inaugural article is a piece reflecting on the painter Francis Bacon and his influence on the Silent Hill series).

The Silent Hill series draws upon a vast range of artists and media for the inspiration behind its macabre setting, its disturbing and suggestive monsters, and its unsettling stories; the work of David Lynch (especially Lost Highway and Mulholland Drive), Adrian Lyne’s Jacob’s Ladder, Stephen King’s “The Mist”, and many more. Of particular importance is Francis Bacon (1909 – 1992), a gay Irish/English figurative painter whose artwork frequently explores themes of dread, violence, sexuality and the human condition – there are strong parallels between Francis Bacon’s work and the monsters, environments and themes of Silent Hill – violence, punishment, redemption, sexuality, death and humanity.

Of course, that’s not to say that the art team behind Silent Hill deliberately and systematically created the world of Silent Hill in deference to Bacon; only that both creators explored similar themes using similar approaches. Takayoshi Sato, the CGI director and character artist for Silent Hill and Silent Hill 2, has stated in an interview with IGN that his team looked at Bacon’s body of work for inspiration for the game, and Masahiro Ito, background and creature designer and later creative director, allegedly counts Francis Bacon as his favourite artist – and it definitely shows.

(Click here to read the rest of the feature over at GayGamer.net, or click "Read more" below to read it right here!)

12 April 2013

[SquareGo] Cognition Episode 1: The Hangman





Cognition: An Erica Reed Thriller, is a game split into four “episodes”, and this review covers Episode 1: The Hangman, which introduces us to the main character of the series, Erica Reed.

Read the rest of the review over at SquareGo, or click below! >>

Erica is an FBI investigator living in Boston, gifted with what she calls “intuition”, a psychic power that allows her to gain clues by touching objects or people and seeing flashes of the past in her mind's eye. Using Erica's intuition, along with the traditional adventure-game mechanic of accumulating handy items and using them to solve puzzles in the environment, gives the player a wealth of tools to investigate a strange murder case. A number of plot threads aren't entirely resolved by the end of the game – giving space for the following three episodes to tie them together.

The game is fairly linear, taking Erica from one area of Boston to another, acquiring clues and solving puzzles. The game's puzzle system will be familiar to anyone who's played adventure games before, and there are a number of handy features to make the game more accessible, including the option to highlight objects you can interact with, and a tips system for each stage of the game.

At times, the puzzles can be utterly infuriating; several involve large leaps of logic that are difficult to reason or intuit, or require the player to get Erica to do things that, in the context of the gritty-real-world-crime-drama that is set up, seem out of character. Some of the puzzles are so difficult to intuit that, short of taking every object in the inventory and rubbing them against every object in every environment on the map until something works, it's inordinately difficult to work out. It can also take a lot of time just to get from one place to another, to tab through dialogue, and there are a number of occasions where the player will need to backtrack.



Erica herself is a fun character to play as; most of Cognition's other characters are either unremarkable or trope-laden; for example, Erica's partner in the FBI is an overweight man in a beige trenchcoat and a creased shirt – with no tie – whose maniacal love for donuts even factors into one of the game's puzzles at one point.

Cognition uses a lot of cel-shaded 3D models alongside painted backgrounds, and many of the game's cutscenes also use painted still images, which, accompanied by the stylized subtitle/dialogue balloons, lend a comic-book feel to the whole story.

The game's audio is great, with music that's very fitting, memorable, and gives the game a brooding, sombre tone - and a fast-paced, high-octane thrill during the notable and not-infrequent action sequences in the game. The voice acting is good as a whole; however, Erica seems to slip in and out of her Boston accent, which can be a little jarring at times. Rose, the Antique Shop owner, says the word “dear” so many times that it draws attention to how forced and artificial the dialogue that was written for her sounds when spoken.

Overall, Cognition is a decent adventure game that provides between six and eight hours worth of play: players of other point-and-click adventures will find something to enjoy in Cognition, and those new to the genre may find it a good jumping-on point, especially if they enjoy police-procedural drama mixed with supernatural elements.

9 April 2013

[SquareGo] The Adventures of Rubberkid - Hands On


It can be difficult to create a game for children that successfully balances fun with education, and from what we've seen of The Adventures of Rubberkid, its creator Charles Jackson has made a great attempt.

The game stars our eponymous hero, Rubberkid, who decides to take a stand against bullies by creating a special suit made out of rubber-bands that he uses to bounce any insults thrown by bullies right back at them.

Read the rest of the review over at SquareGo, or hit 'Read More' below!

14 March 2013

[myGameDev] Hypnagogue

Hypnagogue is a short interactive fiction game I made using Twine. In Hypnagogue, you awake to find that your bedroom has been transmogrified in the night, and you must venture through the "sleeping architecture" to find out more...

I made Hypnagogue with the intention of getting more familiar with Twine, HTML and CSS, and I discovered that it's a great way to make games quickly and requiring little to no specialist know-how - knowing HTML/CSS is a bonus, but it's not necessary in the least! And, best of all, it's completely free!

There's a lot of great resources for making games with Twine on the web, including Anna Anthropy's handy Twine tutorial, a Ashton Raze's guide to CSS in Twine, and of course the official Twine documentation.

If you'd like to see how I made Hypnagogue, you can download the source files here!

19 February 2013

I Confess



There's been a lot of talk on the Interwebbosphere (as it's known) regarding the current state of games writing, and in particular of confessional games writing - a method of journalism where the author of the piece focuses on their own reaction to a particular game, how it may parallel or affect their life, and its influence on society at large. Some have questioned what (if anything) confessional games writing can actually bring to the table and what contribution it makes (if any) to our understanding of games.

From personal experience, I can state (confess?) that reading confessional writing pieces is enormously helpful in understanding the place and form videogames take in people's lives.

I've found reading confessional pieces great for considering new ideas that I either hadn't thought of before, or which I may well have dismissed out of hand had I read them in their own context. For example, Mattie Brice's article 'Would You Kindly' posits a lot of interesting points about the type of violence that's being shown in games like Spec Ops versus the systemic violence faced by minority groups; I hadn't even considered that for many people in the West, the violence of war is something that can seem like a "fantasy" because of how far separated we are from it - hell, I've never even physically seen a gun outside of movies and Youtube clips. And I managed to take this on board all from the fact that Mattie was speaking in terms of games - a language I understood.

When I was writing Gaymers and Gaymercon Counterarguments, I considered how important that "meta-lingual" glossolalia of games could be to opening folk up to something they may not have engaged with before, because it was not part of their daily experience; human sexual orientation/identity and the hobby of playing videogames may not be essentially linked, but using one zone (sexual orientation/identity) to establish meaningful common ground so you can also discuss the other zone (videogames) is a great way to forge connections between people - and it also invites the possibility for each zone to inform the other as well. I find it far easier to consider and take on board new concepts when folk are speaking in terms I already understand rather than introducing an entirely new lexicon and expecting me to be able to completely integrate it into my working knowledge by the end of the article. These allegories and analogies between games and other parts of people's lives - such as identity and quality of life - make it that much easier to find common ground and say, "You know, I may not have been where you have, but I understand it a little more."

There is, obviously, a danger to this, and it's a danger brought up in Joel Goodwin's "The Ethics of Selling Children" on ElectronDance - that confessional writing may be a way of commodifying and repackaging people's (often sensitive, sometimes traumatic) personal experiences into a product to be consumed. After all, I, a white cis man, have just consumed something by a trans* woman of colour, then went on to advocate her writing more, saying, "Confess, and I will listen."

"Prepare a Eucharist from your own flesh, and I will eat it."

But what has actually happened? I've read an article and understood a whole new perspective that was otherwise unknown to me beforehand, an illumination I may not have had, had the language of games not been used. Perhaps this is a good thing - it's one more insight that I can use to help understand the oppression and injustice people face. Perhaps this is a bad thing - I'm just some white guy using someone else's struggle to feed my own worldview. Perhaps it's both - my increased understanding may be offset by the problematic nature of my being a white cis ally saying "I support what you did!". Is the Eucharist wafer bread, or someone's flesh?

It's not about me, though. I am not the only person to have felt the benefit of what was written - hundreds, possibly thousands of others have also had a chance to understand something brand new that they may not have beforehand. The understanding we may have gotten about Spec Ops: The Line may only be marginal (if you want details, try a review? there's more than one type of games writing), but that is offset by a new understanding into the lived experiences of another human being. Confessional games writing does give us an insight into games - rather than focusing on the game, the "I", essence and entity of the game itself, it allows us to see the effects it has on our culture and on other people. Each confession is a little flickering God particle, allowing us to indirectly analyse an ephemeral, transitory thing by seeing how it affects its environment.

We should never, ever deny the importance of self-expression. I may not find a particular article all that helpful for me, but that in no way suggests that the article wasn't helpful for anyone. And, in the end, there is always one person who (hopefully) finds the article helpful - the writer themselves. Like the idea of God incarnating themselves as human to better understand their divine nature, confessional games writing can be a really useful way for writers to understand themselves more - and why should we denigrate that? It could be argued that it's putting the writer before the reader - I'd argue that we're all sitting in the same pew. You chose to come here for the sermon - bow your head and listen for two minutes, or get out of the church entirely.

Lastly, there's the oft-repeated mantra that confessional writing should not be confused with criticism - the confessional article focuses on the player, whereas criticism focuses on the game. That's fair enough. However, there does not need to be a false dichotomy where we have to pick confessional writing over critical analysis or vice versa - both forms of writing can co-exist together, both with their own merits and weaknesses.

I believe there is a place for confessional games writing. Writing is not a limited resource whereby we should always ensure that everyone identifying as a writer is working to the same manifesto, nor is writing a zero-sum game, where we have to ensure the "right" side wins the war. There is enough time and enough space for everyone to have their say, and given that the things that marginalised people want to say are drowned out by outdated sermons we're so tired of hearing, in oppressive churches we no longer want to attend, why would you not want to promote these other voices using a system that's so much more accessible - the confessional of confessional games writing?

Further reading:
The Ethics of Selling Children, by Joel Goodwin
After the Dust Settles: Ethics Revisited, by Joel Goodwin
Would You Kindly, by Mattie Brice
Would You Kindly Not, by Jonas Kyratzes
Can We Kindly?, by Samantha Allen
Decolonize Me, by Mattie Brice
Why We Talk About Ourselves, by Ella Guro
Snow Cats, by Leigh Alexander



17 February 2013

[SquareGo] Review: Disaster Response Unit


Disaster Response Unit focuses on the work of the Technisches Hilfswerk, a German humanitarian relief agency. The THW provide assistance during emergency situations and disasters, and throughout the game, the player will have to deal with such varied missions as rescuing flood survivors in a speedboat, setting up building supports in the aftermath of a gas explosion, clearing highways of debris after a cyclone.

It's not really as dramatic as it sounds, though.

Read the full review over at SquareGo, or click below!

1 February 2013

[SquareGo] Review: Bridge Project



Bridge Project is part of Excalibur Publishing's vast simulator series, and in this game, the player plays through 4 stages – Rural, Cities, Canyon, and Varied – each of which has 12 levels - to build a bridge, predictably enough.

Read the rest of the review over at SquareGo, or click below to read more!

23 January 2013

[myGameDev] Shoogle!



Just a little heads-up - as part of a university project, I'm working with a team of designers, programmers, artists and audio students, on a game to raise awareness of the stresses students can face when entering college and university! Our team, Shoogle, needs your help!

Please take a moment to check out our Facebook page, Twitter account and Wordpress blog! We'll be updating regularly with sneaky peeks into the game, including interviews with team members, concept art and other goodies, so make sure to Follow us for more stuff!


[SquareGo] First Impressions: Pokémon X & Y




Nintendo recently teased that they'd be releasing some big news related to the popular Pokémon series on January 8th – speculation was tossed hither and thither that it may be anything from a console adaptation of the game for the Wii U, a remake of Pokémon Ruby & Sapphire, and even a possible iOS Pokémon game. January 8th arrived..

...and with it came the announcement of Pokémon X & Y, a brand new sixth generation of Pokémon games, exclusively for the 3DS.

Read the rest of the review over at SquareGo, or click below to read more!

13 January 2013

myEXP: Dear Esther


I recently finished Dear Esther by thechineseroom after much deliberation and critical analysis (read: watching the first five minutes of a Youtube "Let's Play" and instantly signing on to Steam to buy it) and, over the course of about an hour and a half, finished it. And, since the narrator of the game saw fit to share his experience in a letter to his dear Esther, I thought it'd be good to share my own experience of this indie title.

Full discussion of Dear Esther is underneath the cut - but be warned, you might want to avoid reading if you aren't okay with seeing mild spoilers for:
  • the series of levels in the game
  • interesting scenes/scenery/models that can be found in the levels
  • slight hints of the story as delivered by the narrator